i don't wanna be anything other than me
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Know what? I was browsing on Yahoo and I stumbled upon a website where people share their secrets. It may be about anything you want to share. It's cool reading other people's confession about a particular thing. Some share about their deepest desires, their dirty little secrets, disappointments, hatred, others even share about their sexual desires which I find a bit outrageous and much much more.
Here are some random secrets that I want to share (they're not mine):
Sex
I sleep with a lot of men, because i love sex and im never satisfied with one man!! It's like when i finish [omitted obscenity] i can go for like 4 more rounds back to back in one night
Long Ago
I hate myself.
I did drugs freshman year and i want to do them again.
again.
Just because they made me feel better.
They made me feel good.
I think about them everyday.
The worst part is no one would know or notice.
They never did before...when it was most apparent.
Thats the saddest part.
I Love My Boyfriend
But his friend was better in bed.
Pregnant By My Brother
I'm in love with my brother, and we slept together. Now I think i'm Pregnant. I don't know how to tell my mother, and I haven't told my brother yet. He's 24 and i'm 19. I'm scared this will break our family apart and people will think i'm werid. I don't know what to do, or how I should bring this up, what should i do?
I'm A Liar
I have lied my way through life. I always tell people what I think they want to hear.
I do not even know who the real me is.
I think I need to get out of my element and discover who I am. I feel like I need to start all over. I am missing something.
I Wish
I wish it was me instead of you that was taken that night. When your heart stopped beating...mine did too. I'm lost without you and I will never forgive myself for letting you go.
I was 18 when I had an abortion and i've never forgiven myself for it.
I Don't Love Myself
I hate my reflection. I have been bulimic for four years now.
Flat Chested
I'm ashamed to have no boobs. I'm not even slim. It disgusts me. I'm 17 and wonder if they'll ever come, especially since I started my periods at 11. I wear gel bras, chicken fillets and padding.. I'm scared that no-one will like me if they see the 'real' me..
6-12
I wet the bed for 6 years. The last time was when I was 12 & in 8th grade.
12-year Secret
I have been in love with the same man for 12 years- and I'm 24. I haven't seen him in 6 years- and I even got married, because I know I will only be in love once in my whole life- and he doesn't want me. I would do anything in the WORLD he asked me to do.. and I know I will be unhappy for the rest of my life with out him.
It Haunts Me
I was sexually assaulted by 3 different people when I was very young. All of them were very close to me. They lost my trust, and my respect. Its over 10 years later since my youngest assualt... I'm 14. I didn't cry when one of them died, when one of them left me for jail (drinking.) In fact, I'm still waiting for karma to get the last person. He lives with me.
Now I have the perfect boyfriend who aims to please me and wants to marry me soon as we are done with high school. But I'm breaking up with him. I can't stand to feel loved by anyone, or I am afraid I will start to trust them. And the same thing will happen again.
P.S. Child Services don't help.
Gone
You left me today, and you didn't even care. I want to kill myself, but I don't have the guts.
Mom
I wished and wished for a reason to justify the hate and repulsion I have for you.Finally last week you shoved me and told me you couldnt care less what happen to me. Now a week has past and we havent spoken since. I wish I had never made that wish.
I Don't Want To Live Anymore
I feel like I fail in every way possible. I don't want to live anymore. There is no reason for me to live. I just feel like killing myself
I Want To Be A Girl
Most of the time, I am perfectly happy being a man. Still, for as long as I can remember, I have felt a strong desire/longing to be a woman and not a man. It's not something that I would ever do anything about, but I still feel it.
Yeah. Most of the secrets are depressing. It's such a sad thing. Heehee. If you want to read more secrets, click here.